"icyhot for my life."

i was watching the episode of rob and big when rob is trying to find ways to make his life more positive and gain balance. the title for this entry is inspired by what he said during his conversation with big black and i can completely relate. i know i've officialy adjusted physically to my schedule when i still wake up at 5-5:30am on the weekend. it's lame to know that i haven't had an uninterrupted 8+ hours of sleep in recent memory. whether or not it shows...i'm getting more and more tired mentally. the life i knew before nursing school is almost a distant memory. the "weight" of finals is now getting to me...it's freakin' 50% of the entire grade! that means if i've had an A (which i unfortunately don't. i have a B)...i could still very well fail the class if i don't pass the exam and i could lose that A if i didn't get an A on the final as well. talk about being tre terrible. i have about 22 chapters to study and it's been giving me a headache. however...my swagger remains strong and the thought of moving up past this class and all the things i'll be doing with friends later on this week is serving as my motivation. just 2 and a half more days of school...and i think that although it's not going get any easier, school will only get better from here on out. i don't think there's a instant quick-fix solution to the stress and pressure that exists in my life...but the things that remind me that life is beautiful and so forth help me get by. for instance...i went to the bi-annual ArtNight in old town pasadena with princess meagan, tiff, and angelica. first and foremost...i never knew there were so many museums in pasadena. i'm definitely going back to visit them all. we could only manage to go to one and that was the norton simon. it was free and it was my first time...so you know i was lovin' it. monet, picasso, degas...i got to see some of my favorite artists as well as religious pieces that really got me thinking which is especially good around this time of lent. and what better way to end the night than dinner at noodleworld. i've said it before and i'll say it again...i live for nights like these. to do what i love with the people i love. it doesn't get any better.