"rehab."

on 11/9/2009, i will be

starting RN school at west coast university.

so much has already happened this year...

and as quick as it is going, there's still

so much that will happen before 2010 arrives.

i'm especially concerned with the next

two or so months before school begins again for me.

last year i was in a similar position.

i had two or so months before i went

back to school. as i am now...i don't have

a job and whatever money comes my way

is hard to hold on to.

i find it a struggle to fill my days with

content that makes me feel productive

with how i'm living my life out.

the main difference aside

from being in a much more positive

situation is that the next two months

of vacation this time around

were born out of my success and not my failure.

as it stands...september and october will be

spent rediscovering who i am.

i got so caught up with all the action this year

that i lost myself in the mix and

i denied it with a smile and a sense of hope.

a false hope...or rather an incomplete hope.

truth is, i'm not completely happy

with who i am right now.

i'm blessed and thankful to have

amazing family and friends, means

of sustenance, my possessions, luxuries,

and the gift of life itself.

however, i'm not totally alright with

myself and that has affected

everything i'm passionate for...

what i've mentioned already and then some.

i thought keeping to myself

this past weekend would help

make things better,

but i believe God is telling me i need

more time to heal, repair, etc.

i'm moving at the speed of life.

my answers, my cure, my hope will

come to me at same speed as well.

i just gotta keep moving along and

working on myself.

pray for me...

because this fall is looking to be

challenging, successful, tiring, interesting,

legen...wait for it...

dary! - jl

p.s. i'm slowly transitioning to a tumblr account...stay tuned for details.

"extraordinary feat of romance."

tom tom club isn't the only genius of love.

giving props to ted mosby - jl

"run the city...again."

the nike human race come back for round 2 to los angeles.

i'm sure there won't be as much flare or flash this time around

(kanye will be nowhere to be found).

i'm excited for it and i'll be training for it come september.

the thrill of the chase returns - jl

"aria, shar, lauren, kelly, chelsea."

i didn't think i'd be a fan of another girl group

after the spice girls...but the paradiso girls

come around and prove me wrong.

there's something about the song

(and definitely something about the video)

that has me and the other guys in love with them.

crazy horse comes out late summer.

from what's already been leaked out...

it's going to be a good cd.

chelsea korka had my heart at 3:22 - jl

"art in action."

shaun evaristo could single-handedly inspire me back into dancing.

bow in the presence of greatness - jl

"too sweet."

i'll never look at a

jack o' lantern the

same away again - jl

"10."

simply put...here's my top 10 active athletes.

rafael nadal > roger federer.

eric koston is the reason why i got

into the skateboard culture...

meeting him at active in brea was a great experience.

peyton manning is proof there's (a wonderful)

life after johnny unitas for the colts.

david beckham made me fall in love with the beautiful game.

i'm still a fan...regardless of how the riot squad feels about him.

hines ward is the reason why i became a steelers fan.

the spider is definitely on point...

the way he brought dan henderson down was vicious

and he made beating forrest griffin look effortless.

tiger woods is the only reason i watch golf.

russell martin is

my favorite player

on my favorite baseball team.

ronaldinho = joga bonito.

and of course...

the black mamba...

nothing else needs to be said.

motivated to just keep doing it - jl

"my life...or something like it."

right down to the wire...even through the fire - jl

"a good day indeed."

car washed.

stella rosa and red velvet at the galvan residence.

ana's going away party...

seeing some long lost friends.

dim sum with the family.

pleasantries from the leelins.

ra with the homies.

and everything sweet in between...

i gotta thank God.

good night world - jl

"from trashy to classy."

this is the reason why i'm still awake.

ryan leslie is a genius!

it's finally time to sleep - jl