"shoot me down."

this has to be the lowest point of the year thus far.
after a lackluster display of effort and commitment...
i got fired from starbucks.
ouch...yeah it definitely hurts.
i'm going to miss working with my peers there
and the flexibility of the job
but i made the choice to
prioritize family over my job.
it was a painful and difficult choice
in terms of knowing i'm putting
my job and myself on the line...
but it was also easy and simple
knowing i needed to deal with
family issues and situations before
anything else...worse comes to worst my family comes first.
i'll never forget the good times and the bad times.
i'll always cherish the bonds i've made and
the opportunities the job gave me.

"please don't shoot down...
because i'm flying, i'm flying, i'm high up."

- lil' wayne/d. smith -

oh yeah...getting fired is a bad thing.
it is failure at its professional worst.
but this experience has also set me free.
you can believe the hype...
that i was perpetually late
and that i wasn't professional and
blah blah blah.
truth is...i loved the people i worked with
but not the job itself. i believe my passion
for being a barista was subpar.
by continuing to work there...
i was being dishonest
with my co-workers and myself.
i wasn't being real.
i was doing the right thing for all the wrong reasons perhaps.
i have to love what i do...
and do what i love and somewhere
along the way i forgot that.
i did my job at starbucks...
did it well enough to have been there this long.
something had to finally give...
and i'm glad it was me.
not having the money will only hurt me right now.
not being true to myself would have been a chronic pain.

this is the first time i've been shot down this past year.
i knew i was bound to suffer like this sooner than later...
and it's better sooner than later.

i'll find my way back up again.
i'll suffer...and i'll survive.
i'll endure...and i'll thrive.

i'm going to touch the sky once more.