"drive."

disclaimer: this is going to be a very random but informative entry.

the past week has not been too nice to me.
it was a very rough week at school.
clinicals and theory days went on too long.
working during a laker game was lame.
some of my classmates got our class
under pressure from the d.o.n. and other administrators.
there truly has been better days.


luckily...all has not been so triste status.
i've been able to spend a lot of time with my friends...
time i don't normally have to be with them.
from roscoes to mi casa to jason's party.
nikki's birthday bash to late-night chill sessions to bbqs...
it's been extremely, definitely, positively worthwhile.


with all this in mind...
i must admit i was very irresponsible with the way
i've handled myself these past couple of days.
it's cool to not have my parents around but
i seem to have let go way too much without them here.
i've been having a good time but it's come at the expense
of my own well-being ultimately.
my sister checked me on that and i thank her for it...
as much as the truth hurts i need to feel that sting to gain more clarity.
i believe it's because i've been longing to be free like i used to be...
to make the most of the time i have without any stress or pressure.
but i also know that i can't be the way i used to be before...
i know better and that means i can't be living la vida loca the moment
i have to opportunity to. i have to handle aspects of my life
in a more mature way regardless of anything and i need to just
live as a person that is now more...evolved.


i watched indiana jones...movie was on point.
yeah the alien thing was weird but i was okay with it.
i mean...it doesn't get any weirder than
human sacrifices, child slavery, and live heart removal all in one movie.
not to mention having a man go through the controversial topics of Christianity,
judaism, and hinduism like it's nothing.
i also watched cloverfield...i can understand the mixed reviews.
the action was good. the perspective was dizzy at times
but i got into it. the ending was just lame.
and that should conclude my movie review section haha.

this memorial day weekend was a good weekend overall and
it was sort of like a preview of things to come this summer.
with that in mind...here are 10 things i want to do before fall arrives:

1) go on a trip. cruise, camping, vegas, whatever...as long i as can "get away from it all."
2) get an ipod. seriously...three years w/o one for somebody like me
who loves listening to music is too long.
3) get a new phone. yeah...an lg voyager would make my (social) life definitely easier.
4) attend rock the bells. four words: A TRIBE CALLED QUEST.
5) sasabune. i think it's time to go with my senpai to have what he calls "the best sushi around."
6) watch coldplay. i don't care how...i will. it's on my "things to do before i die."
7) buy boardshorts. yeah this sounds lame. but check this out. i only have one pair of boardshorts and it's from hollister aka. the store i extremely detest and haven't been in for years. it seems hypocritical of me to rock it at the pool or beach.
8) watch an opera. the current opera season ends in june with tosca and la rondine while the next season doesn't start up until fall. i better act fast on this one before time runs out. by the way...tosca and la rondine are two reasons why giacomo puccini is amazing.
9) more fire. it wouldn't be summer without going at least once.
10) make it through second semester. the next semester is going to be the hardest one. having it during summer makes it worse. i hope to maintain a steady focus and keep my overall stamina in check as i toil away at school and the hospital.

i had a hours-long conversation with ed noriega this past week and he
reminded me about something important...PASSION.
i'll spend the next blog talking about this issue so consider this a preview.
what is passion? what is passion to me? what is passion to you?
i learned it's more than just emotion in action or just having strong feelings.
what drives us? what moves us? what makes us stay?
what keeps us going? and as "the girl next door" pointed out...
what makes the juice worth the squeeze?

keep this in mind until then. take care and much love.