"auf wiedersen."

i have decided to move on to a

brand new blog.

xanga ---> livejournal ---> xanga again ---> blogspot --->

and now

you can continue to follow

my adventures, thoughts, likes and passions at

www.johnisforlovers.tumblr.com

when i started this blog in 02/2008...i had no direction to go

but up. i've had some setbacks, but i've managed to rise and

keep moving on up. i know that years from now

i'll look back at this blog and recall a time

when i was at a major crossroads in my life and endured some of the

toughest times thus far.

i've done more than survive...i've persevered and

there's still so much life to live out.

thanks for your patronage to this blog and

i hope you continue to follow me on my journey.

take care and much love - jl

"rehab."

on 11/9/2009, i will be

starting RN school at west coast university.

so much has already happened this year...

and as quick as it is going, there's still

so much that will happen before 2010 arrives.

i'm especially concerned with the next

two or so months before school begins again for me.

last year i was in a similar position.

i had two or so months before i went

back to school. as i am now...i don't have

a job and whatever money comes my way

is hard to hold on to.

i find it a struggle to fill my days with

content that makes me feel productive

with how i'm living my life out.

the main difference aside

from being in a much more positive

situation is that the next two months

of vacation this time around

were born out of my success and not my failure.

as it stands...september and october will be

spent rediscovering who i am.

i got so caught up with all the action this year

that i lost myself in the mix and

i denied it with a smile and a sense of hope.

a false hope...or rather an incomplete hope.

truth is, i'm not completely happy

with who i am right now.

i'm blessed and thankful to have

amazing family and friends, means

of sustenance, my possessions, luxuries,

and the gift of life itself.

however, i'm not totally alright with

myself and that has affected

everything i'm passionate for...

what i've mentioned already and then some.

i thought keeping to myself

this past weekend would help

make things better,

but i believe God is telling me i need

more time to heal, repair, etc.

i'm moving at the speed of life.

my answers, my cure, my hope will

come to me at same speed as well.

i just gotta keep moving along and

working on myself.

pray for me...

because this fall is looking to be

challenging, successful, tiring, interesting,

legen...wait for it...

dary! - jl

p.s. i'm slowly transitioning to a tumblr account...stay tuned for details.

"extraordinary feat of romance."

tom tom club isn't the only genius of love.

giving props to ted mosby - jl

"run the city...again."

the nike human race come back for round 2 to los angeles.

i'm sure there won't be as much flare or flash this time around

(kanye will be nowhere to be found).

i'm excited for it and i'll be training for it come september.

the thrill of the chase returns - jl

"aria, shar, lauren, kelly, chelsea."

i didn't think i'd be a fan of another girl group

after the spice girls...but the paradiso girls

come around and prove me wrong.

there's something about the song

(and definitely something about the video)

that has me and the other guys in love with them.

crazy horse comes out late summer.

from what's already been leaked out...

it's going to be a good cd.

chelsea korka had my heart at 3:22 - jl

"art in action."

shaun evaristo could single-handedly inspire me back into dancing.

bow in the presence of greatness - jl

"too sweet."

i'll never look at a

jack o' lantern the

same away again - jl

"10."

simply put...here's my top 10 active athletes.

rafael nadal > roger federer.

eric koston is the reason why i got

into the skateboard culture...

meeting him at active in brea was a great experience.

peyton manning is proof there's (a wonderful)

life after johnny unitas for the colts.

david beckham made me fall in love with the beautiful game.

i'm still a fan...regardless of how the riot squad feels about him.

hines ward is the reason why i became a steelers fan.

the spider is definitely on point...

the way he brought dan henderson down was vicious

and he made beating forrest griffin look effortless.

tiger woods is the only reason i watch golf.

russell martin is

my favorite player

on my favorite baseball team.

ronaldinho = joga bonito.

and of course...

the black mamba...

nothing else needs to be said.

motivated to just keep doing it - jl

"my life...or something like it."

right down to the wire...even through the fire - jl

"a good day indeed."

car washed.

stella rosa and red velvet at the galvan residence.

ana's going away party...

seeing some long lost friends.

dim sum with the family.

pleasantries from the leelins.

ra with the homies.

and everything sweet in between...

i gotta thank God.

good night world - jl

"from trashy to classy."

this is the reason why i'm still awake.

ryan leslie is a genius!

it's finally time to sleep - jl

"late nights are made for slow jams."

okay, so some aren't slow jams...

but they're great to listen to in the 

early parts of the a.m.

the dream - i'm not ok

gwen stefani - 4 in the morning

twista - wetter

kings of leon - use somebody

ciara - promise (lukewarm midnight remix)

tydis feat. chingy - she make me say

coldplay - fix you

shiny toy guns - seasons of love

the dream - put it down

the fray - look after you

trey songz - takes time to love

kleerup feat. lykke li - until we bleed

angie stone - wish i didn't miss you

u2 - city of blinding lights

lloyd feat. the dream - i need love 

westlife - i wanna grow old with you

ryan leslie - gibberish

radiohead - idiotheque 

mario feat. the dream - boomin' it

and a personal favorite...

gwen stefani - the real thing (bonus remix)

in the mood - jl

"fiya."

it's monday night and here i am reminiscing on the

swag flu epidemic 

that was this past weekend's vegas trip.

i'm definitely sure that there were thousands more with

more money, a more equal male-female ratio, better hotel,

better amenities, and such...

but let it be known to all that my three days in vegas

with pat, christian, genevee, devyn, ana, tiff, 

jee, mike b, stephen, lala, jennie, ashley, and fred

was amazing.

it was also a pleasure to chill with

maddie, dub, matt, brent, paul, betty, jay,

james, wes, and all others who spent a little time

with us, ran into us, and/or made a one-night turnaround.

i'll cherish the memories of...

- arthur's driving tunes.

- steak and eggs at bill's gambling hall.

- fat tuesdays @ caesars.

- living it up at jet on friday night.

- taxi ride and car conversations.

- bootleg badcast sessions.

- soulja boy's "turn my swag on."

- relaxing at parasol down at the wynn

- the awesomeness that was XS.

- hotel room laughs.

- almost 4 hours of lunch/dinner at wynn buffet.

- attending mass and confession at the guardian angel cathedral.

i needed a vacation like this and i've been waiting to go on one 

since i graduated.  i'm blessed and fortunate to be safe and have

great friends to enjoy this trip with.

but alas, it was only a mere getaway...not an escape.  

i'm fully recovered and ready to improve the quality,

experience, and (hopefully) duration of this adventure

called life and its daily grind.

here's to job hunting, reviewing for the nclex, and 

getting ready for RN school!

there is no cure for the swag flu - jl

"her name is olivia."

say hello to my little (and brand new) friend...

i named it after a pair of my two favorite eye candies haha.

being reminded of musiq's "newness" - jl

"nyquil...where art thou?"

having a cold during the summer is so troublesome.

i can't help my grandma out or

visit my grandpa at his nursing care facility.

i can't work out at the gym and stay fit.

i can't eat normal portion meals.

i can't go to san francisco this weekend

with rachel, brent, paul, and arthur.

my aim to be productive this summer is certainly

off the mark at the moment.

i hope to get better as soon as possible.

i'm getting as much rest as i can and

relying on vitamins to raise me up.

i missed out on the bay area trip...

but i will not miss out on vegas.

i'm will not miss out on this adventure.

straight illin' - jl

"industry versus inferiority."

the first full week of my summer vacation has arrived.

it comes after an eventful weekend that included the death anniversary of paulo, a reunion with brother eric burke, the baptism of my niece ever marian, and kabalikat society's first annual philippine independence day festival...all of which were amazing times.

and then monday comes along to remind me that the weekend comes only as it implies in its name...at the end of the week. 5 days of what used to be filled with 40 hours of school and about 8 hours of driving is no longer my weekeday reality. it's really some kind of irony...i dreaded my school schedule for the past 18 months but now when i have so much time on my hands, i long for being productive and learning. i need to find things to do now...to make the weekdays worthwhile.

i will not end up a nobody, wasting my life away when the world yearns to be explored, when the community desires service, and loved ones seek affirmation through experiences.

my elevator is only heading up - jl

"hot pursuit."

some people spend their time chasing paper.

the los angeles police chased oj in a white bronco.

tom chased jerry, sylvester chased tweety,

wild e. coyote chased the road runner,

and boss hogg chased the general lee

all over hazzard county.

there are those who chase their dreams

while others go about chasing one another.

silent bob chased amy.

there are even people chasing pavements.

whatever you're chasing...

make sure it's real.

make sure you're passionate about it.

make sure it's worthwhile.

otherwise...why bother?

finding sense in insomnia - jl

"my heart is racing."

i want to run...

and smash into you.

finding myself willing to be in love - jl

"distance."

i don't really say it out loud...

but i'm hoping that i'm doing something

every day that brings me closer to her.

gone fishing - jl

"finally."

july 7, 2009.

the day i've been waiting the past 18 months for.

the last day i would spend at concorde career college.

my graduation day.

the time went by so quickly that i'm still settling into

the fact that i am finally done with that school. i succeeded

in doing what i set out to do. i had a couple setbacks,

disappointments, and failures. i made a whole lot

of sacrifices and i've been broken down and put

back together in a whole other way...

but here i am now as

john lendl lachica chuatuan, VN.

i'm finally a nurse...a dream come true.

i can't wait to take my licensure exam in the fall

to add a L to that VN.

in the meantime...my summer has finally begun.

i look forward to going on vacations, adventures, and so forth.

i also look forward to spending more time with friends.

i'm in need of a job until i take my exam...so the hunt begins now for one.

the next 2-3 months will be great...

and i'm going to cherish the time because

RN school is already on the horizon for me.

but for now, i'm lovin' the feeling of being...

free.

being a nurse feels damn good - jl

and by the way...

happy birthday paulo...party it up in Heaven.