"auf wiedersen."

i have decided to move on to a

brand new blog.

xanga ---> livejournal ---> xanga again ---> blogspot --->

and now

you can continue to follow

my adventures, thoughts, likes and passions at

www.johnisforlovers.tumblr.com

when i started this blog in 02/2008...i had no direction to go

but up. i've had some setbacks, but i've managed to rise and

keep moving on up. i know that years from now

i'll look back at this blog and recall a time

when i was at a major crossroads in my life and endured some of the

toughest times thus far.

i've done more than survive...i've persevered and

there's still so much life to live out.

thanks for your patronage to this blog and

i hope you continue to follow me on my journey.

take care and much love - jl

"rehab."

on 11/9/2009, i will be

starting RN school at west coast university.

so much has already happened this year...

and as quick as it is going, there's still

so much that will happen before 2010 arrives.

i'm especially concerned with the next

two or so months before school begins again for me.

last year i was in a similar position.

i had two or so months before i went

back to school. as i am now...i don't have

a job and whatever money comes my way

is hard to hold on to.

i find it a struggle to fill my days with

content that makes me feel productive

with how i'm living my life out.

the main difference aside

from being in a much more positive

situation is that the next two months

of vacation this time around

were born out of my success and not my failure.

as it stands...september and october will be

spent rediscovering who i am.

i got so caught up with all the action this year

that i lost myself in the mix and

i denied it with a smile and a sense of hope.

a false hope...or rather an incomplete hope.

truth is, i'm not completely happy

with who i am right now.

i'm blessed and thankful to have

amazing family and friends, means

of sustenance, my possessions, luxuries,

and the gift of life itself.

however, i'm not totally alright with

myself and that has affected

everything i'm passionate for...

what i've mentioned already and then some.

i thought keeping to myself

this past weekend would help

make things better,

but i believe God is telling me i need

more time to heal, repair, etc.

i'm moving at the speed of life.

my answers, my cure, my hope will

come to me at same speed as well.

i just gotta keep moving along and

working on myself.

pray for me...

because this fall is looking to be

challenging, successful, tiring, interesting,

legen...wait for it...

dary! - jl

p.s. i'm slowly transitioning to a tumblr account...stay tuned for details.

"extraordinary feat of romance."

tom tom club isn't the only genius of love.

giving props to ted mosby - jl

"run the city...again."

the nike human race come back for round 2 to los angeles.

i'm sure there won't be as much flare or flash this time around

(kanye will be nowhere to be found).

i'm excited for it and i'll be training for it come september.

the thrill of the chase returns - jl

"aria, shar, lauren, kelly, chelsea."

i didn't think i'd be a fan of another girl group

after the spice girls...but the paradiso girls

come around and prove me wrong.

there's something about the song

(and definitely something about the video)

that has me and the other guys in love with them.

crazy horse comes out late summer.

from what's already been leaked out...

it's going to be a good cd.

chelsea korka had my heart at 3:22 - jl